Gleeful: Starry eyed

Gleeful: Starry eyed

Here is a great photo of the heavens smiling down on us...

Thanks and Giving

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Winter and Autumn seem to be playing tag. One day warm, almost 60F, the next cold at 28F dispersed by fog, rain, and falling leaves

On top of that, the heavens are smiling down on the world. I admit I am a space junkie, both astronomy and astrology fascinate me. I love the Winter sky constellations, Orion on his hunt is probably my favorite.

I spent last night in a pub with two of my good friends and we reveled in being girls. Laughing at historic shocking moments of our adolescence, and being thankful we were almost 2 decades beyond those times. I distinctly remember one lunchroom day as Junior in High School where we 12 of us were talking about how our lives were going to be when we were 35, how old it seemed then, how on top of the world we would be.

Some of those dreams seem silly, and others so far out of reach, I wonder if any of us made even 1/2 of them come true. I am thankful to say that I do have the husband and family I dreamed about, even if my husband is a different man than I imagined then, and my 2 girls and two boys turned out to be all boys. :)

Christmas is coming, and I am not all that excited this year, which is a first for me, maybe ever in my life. I usually enjoy every minute of the season from decorating the day after thanksgiving to the lights to special treats in the kitchen, Christmas eve, Christmas day, and the few days until the new year.

I miss that joy. I think perhaps I let myself feel too weighed down by the events out of my control, and perhaps I don't feel as if there are too many good thoughtful gifts to give or receive.

I told one of my friends she needed to write a journal to her 18 month old daughter of the things she did as a teen that she regretted, and the things she did that she cherishes.

That would be a great gift to receive, a little bit of history, and a glimpse of someone you love from a whole different perspective, their own.

That is what I am most thankful for, relationships and sharing moments, smiles, hugs and tears. I find that I am also thankful for the people who share glimpses of their lives in blogs and even for the bakery that sends me newsletter that shares the hearts of the owners and not just what's new in the business.. People I will probably never meet, but who warm my heart with their stories, and challenge my thinking.